I Need Help with Depression and PCOS
I was 11 years old when I was diagnosed with PCOS.
I had menstrual periods that were so heavy I would pass blood clots the size of my fist. I was in so much pain I had to miss school and that is when I was put on birth control pills. I was 14 then and a smoker.
Smoking and birth control pills cause deep vein thrombosis. I got a blood clot in my left leg and let me tell you that was the most painful experience I have ever gone through, all because of PCOS. I don't have the blood clot causing me pain anymore but I do have symptoms like swelling and soreness sometimes.
I have caused my right knee a little damage I think because I have had to adjust my weight to my right leg so I wouldn't cause too much stress on my left.
I can't have kids so I am told because I am 70 pounds over weight. I have tried to diet. it is so hard for me. Exercise is hard when you are a housewife with no kids. I am tired all the time and have no energy to do anything.
I don't know what to do at this point. I get motivated sometimes and then it wears off.
I am 25 years old now and am trying to make a family.
I am depressed every day because when you have this problem you don't even want to do that little thing you need to do to have kids if you know what I mean. I am never excited and I get frustrated when my husband wants to get close with me.
I feel ugly because I am going bald and all I see is fat when I look in the mirror.
If anyone can support me and give me ideas on how to motivate myself, please post a comment.
You're ignoring the fact that you are a wonderful, unique and special human being.
You can honor the beautiful being you are by taking action. Any simple action. Taking action will cause your feelings about yourself to change.
Exercise is a great example. You can exercise every day whether or not you feel depressed. Maybe you could start out with a walk around the block. It would get you out of the house, which is a plus. Find a friend or neighbor who will do it with you. Or maybe you can go with your husband. Do your best to do it every day. If you miss a day, don't worry, just resume your walk the next day.
Depression is very common in PCOS but you can't let depression stop you. Find a friend to walk with, find another woman who has PCOS or weight issues so you guys can be a team, join an organization such as Weight Watchers, work with a therapist….there's are lots of things you can do to help yourself.
Pick something and do it.
No one else will ever care as much about you as YOU. You're only 25 years old! You have your entire life ahead of you. Find someone to give you a helping hand NOW. For example, find a psychologist to talk to. That would be a good first step.